condolences

It is always very hard to loose someone you are close to.

I am shocked with the news about the death. I’m never good with expressing condolence but I’m wishing them with all the strength they need now to go through this hard time.

We knew that the departure was inevitable, and what we could do is hoping that it didn’t involve too much pain and regrets…

My heartfelt condolences to the Lim’s family…

changes

This is fucking too much for a week.
The changes & the movements…

I've been trying to be real forgiving and understanding to those who have been giving lots of crap to deal with.

I had endured it with silent agony all this while, but things are getting from bad to worst…

It’s really hard to be Mr. Nice all the time…

Ok, eventually come to my senses that I’m facing the reality and that is the “real world”…

Yes, call me the fool instead!

disclaimer

Although there're moments in life when I'm totally comfortable with those kids around me but that doesn’t mean that I’m suffering from pedophilia.

In case you are wondering, I'm not that sick.

自救

我发现自己好久没抬起头，真正地望一望蓝天。

可能是因为现在的我太习惯夜晚了… 望着蓝天时，感觉有点点的语塞，一时间也无法真正的描述当时的感觉。

我不知道要从何说起，但我知道不能再沉沦下去了。

人本渺小，无人完美。
我努力地摇醒自己，我也只能自救。

ramblings

Ok, shitty stuff happens in life...
They will and always do, because life is never a bed of roses.

Well, what we can do is just look at it from a brighter point of view. Call it a way that toughens things up and that could make individuals emotionally stronger.

Nevertheless, option like distancing oneself away and defying self’s existence doesn’t help at all. In fact, it worsens the skills to communicate with others as time goes by.

And I got to admit that I’ve learnt to respect, love & appreciate my life more now, but only after experiencing traumatic death of people I knew.

Considering the fact that I’m the type of person who refuses to let go of the past when I should and the sort of person who can't dreams about what the future holds. Their departure had triggered me to change for better & I’ve decided not to make the blog sound so dark and morbid anymore. (Ok, that takes time… After all, I’m melancholic.)

Enough of ramblings, I’ll just end here…
But I’ll be all ears if there are stories to hear.

Life stories, not bedtime stories.

attitudes

Seriously, I don’t care whether you are going through any rough patches now; just bear in mind, that doesn’t gives you any rights in talking to me or anyone with an extremely rude attitude.

I don't see why I deserve such unnecessary attitude from anyone just because they had a bad day or whatever causes it.

After all, I’m human. I’ll get annoyed if I’m constantly irritated with rudeness... Tolerance levels are running low, and you are way beyond my limits of forbearance.

Oh ya, if you wish to be a zombie that walks and breathes, incapable of thinking or feeling for others. By all means, be my guest. You can continue struggling daily in a consistent low gear. Well, it’s your life after all... It’s none of my business. But don’t ever give me attitudes because of your personal woes again… I don’t need that to spice up my day.

I’ve said this before (god knows how many times I repeated this), I'm merely a friend, and I’m not your father.

选择

我终于知道没什么东西是放不下的…
终究还是看自己是否愿意放下而已。

而我将选择放弃这里的一切。

stories

I like stories.

To be precise, I enjoyed listening to those dramatic life experiences stories that others have…

Stories have never fail to add some light and colour in my world.
Although some made me cry and some made me laugh, but I'll never get enough of them…

Tell me more, I'm all ears...

problem

Those accusation wasn't totally groundless.

Maybe I’ve been the problem. Guess I’m the one to blame.
But even when I turn it off and blame myself, the outcome feels the same...

Time and effort has been wasted and the future no longer exist...

十三号の默哀

十三号星期五是她的葬礼，无需多说…
只能默哀。

sense of loss

Time glides by discreetly without realization.

I'm waking up each morning with an overwhelming sense of loss.
My head hurts with an empty feeling that lingers in the corner of the heart...

I've lost something, something that I couldn't recall...

安息

自己未曾问过任何人他们对于生命的见解。
一直以来，我也只把生死轮回当作是一种信念。

而每天总会有勇敢的人不断的和死神搏斗着…
虽然最终还是战输了，但自己将永远记住他们与癌症对抗的勇气。

癌症的摧折，夺走了生命。
今年的元宵没有团圆，却只有安息离别…

幻觉

终于有时间上网了，最近总是忙得不可开支。
之前所发生过的事情，也没必要再辩解下去。

说实话，音乐真的很奇妙…
悲哀之时，如果能听听伤感之类的歌，的确有助於调解当时的心情。

而伤口就象是一种幻觉，也无须执着那疼痛。

错

第一次觉得自己过去所做的一切都是错的。

而一切都是应得的…
自己也没有资格坚持什么。

对不起，我错了。